i met dis guy.."J"..
i've never noticed him before...till one day we met during dis outing..
it started off with a "Hi"..n from dat moment onwards,we became close..
he was so friendly and caring.. and he even "looked" after me during the outing...i didn't think of anything...mayb he was juz being friendly..so in my mind was,"wat happened there,ends there"..
then,
at the end of the outing, J wanted to keep in touch wif me..so i agreed..
then,a few days later..J smsed me..
J showed his care and concern in the smses...
im not sure of his intentions..but i appreciate it....
then,
on the eve of 18th of July,
received an sms by J,asking me out..
So I met up wif him after a meeting wif the OAC peeps....
i waited for J at the CCK station..he arrived minutes later..
then we headed to Lot 1...J was nice enough to treat me to dinner..
we talked n talked n talked.....
den we head down to the night market..
walked and window shopped....
den...we decide to hang around...
so we sat outside Mac..
we continued the conversation there..
J is a good conversationalist..n it's never a bored,chatting wif him..
J told me bout his family,his work n almost everything.....
Then,J asked me bout my past relationship...(here comes the "R" word)..
so i shared my whole life story wif him...
i also told him bout my late ex-bf,Izzul..
i almost dropped a tear talking bout Arwah Izzul....but i remained strong throughout the whole conversation....

Only god knows how much i love Izzul...
Izzul died in a bike accident...
dat's been an impact to me ever since...
what made me guilty was,i wasn't there wen Izzul needs me ...n dats was a few daes before the tragic incident...

I loved Izzul!I loved him so much dat it hurt!I may fall in love with other people.But nothing dat happens to me will ever compare with dat special way i felt for Izzul..Izzul's gone now.But i'll never forget him..or wat it feels like to be in love....
then,i thought i could depend on Ari..But falling in love wif him was a big mistake...it caused so much trouble to me..Dat was the period of "my most miserable relationship"....
i managed to survive the 3 yrs wif Ari..n it's all over now..

The 1st time in my life,im breathing...

After i've told J everything, J cared for me even more..he motivated me to go on wif my life..n yea..let bygones be bygones..J's history was almost the same as mine...n i'd better keep dat, personal...

Then, at the end of the day, J gave me a suprised..he handed me the paper bag he was holding to..n inside,was my birthday present!..
At dat moment,i almost cried...
J was the nicest man dat nite...it was very unexpected..
Thank You J..i appreciate the things u've done for me..
we became close friend ever since....n hope it'll go on for as long as i live..it was nice knowing J...can't wait to see him on Monday..
N yea!! sch re-open!..miss my frenz so much!!!..

mayb dats all for now..

Till then peeps..Gd nite.